So true Spastic_Dove. It just seems not worth it anymore. Its like, if you left, everyone you knew and once loved would find out and just say, "Oh really? Hmm. Now whats for dinner?" Like no one would give a flying patooty if you lived or died. And that may not be true but it sure seems like that when your toes are over the cliff.
To "outsiders", if you will, it may seem like really? come on now, you cant honestly think NO ONE cares? But uh yeah, people do feel that way. Happiness, to people considering sucide, seems like something that existed a billion years ago and was suddenly yanked from you and ran far away and is never coming back. If you can pull, dig, claw yourself out of the pit and off the cliff your rational thought will come back and it will be like wait, huh? I felt that way, naaah, thats stupid! But, unfortunatly for truly depressed people the bad, sad, horrible feelings will come back and for alot of people this rollarcoaster becomes more than they can take, and sometimes they never climb out or lift their heads above water to stop the drowning. They stay there in that depressed, agonizing almost catatonic state, lying in bed, dreaming of being nothing, and slip away, exhausted from feeling. It happens, its not rational, like Spastic_Dove said, but its reality and no one should be punished for feeling reality.