Originally Posted by Spastic_Dove
I always have to laugh when someone says it's the 'cowards way out'. I don't believe that could be further than the truth. Of course it takes courage to get through whatever has gotten you to that point. But people do not just wake up one day and decide they are going to kill themselves. Courage has gotten them so far and they need help for the rest. They have no tools left in their toolbox to deal with life.
In February, I was in a 72 hour suicide crisis center. My entire life I have dealt with depression issues and suicide had been a fleeting thought. In February though I can tell you I was someone else. The most courageous thing I did was check myself into the ER but I can tell you that had I have followed through with it, it would not have been because I was a coward or because I wanted to die. Instead it would have been because I wanted to not feel the way I was feeling. Unless you have been to that point it is very difficult to comprehend the thoughts and emotions that you go through as well as what it feels like to get to that point.
As far as heaven and hell, I don't believe in it in the literal sense. I do not believe someone who kills themselves will burn in an eternal fire. Luke says "blessed are those who weep for they shall laugh". This is the point where I believe in reincarnation and I lose faith in an omnipotent God.
You took a big and brave step doing what you did. Congrats.
I am one of the people who can comprehend how you felt..Not getting into my experiences, but I do know what is it like. Everybody is different.. some just don't know why they feel the way they do, others are in pain, some just think life can't get better, some think noone cares, etc.
Thanks for your input about suicide and your personal experience