Earlier today, I sat down and read, often through tear-filled eyes, each and every one of the 120 posts on your fascinating, and multiple-emotion-illiciting, many months-long thread. I was utterly moved by so many factors...
From your strength and "never say quit" attitude, to the same in your strong and so heartily spirited April! She obviously knew beyond ALL doubt that she was loved, and so clearly loved you just as much. That is why she kept progressing and doing better and better every DAY!
I felt the need to write to you tonight and share with you the degree to which everything you went through not ONLY terrified me (how could it NOT?), but simultaneously inspired me beyond belief. In today's all too often "throw away" world, where people are literally afraid of committing to anything, up to and including the long term care and devotion required to nurse their very ill beloved animals/companions/fur-children back to health. Sadly, even when it is not THE ONLY OPTION, more and more people today who HAVE the financial means to do otherwise will make the decision to put their horse down, in the name of, "I'm not strong enough to go through what will undoubtedly be required in order to get this creature back to where they were pre-accident/injury", JUST the opposite, thank God, from what you decided.
From what it sounded like, despite a likelihood that all would turn out for the best, you had far from a guarantee that she would be back at 100%, or even close. Yet you gambled on yourself and your love for her, as well as on HER internal drive to get well and her love for you. What a BRAVE and unusually strong woman you are! I have also heard the same from so many respondants in this thread...so much bravery, and the voices of folks whom, like you, if faced with the nightmarish situation you were, would have also bet on their horses to win! Such an inspiration reading this thread was to me!
I can tell that your example may very well be what aided in empowering MANY horse moms on this site to realize that if (and God forbid, when) the chips are ever down in their own lives as low as they can seemingly go, they may just have the strength to be able at that time to say, "NOW is when I am going to MAKE this WORK!"...because Angel did it...I can DO IT, TOO! What an awesome achievement.
I would imagine that throughout your future, each time a serious difficulty is encountered in your life, you will have it engrained in your heart and mind that never ceasing to fight is the right way to handle it. So few of us are given the opportunity to find that out ahead of time...the only tragedy is that learning this lifelong lesson involved pain for your beautiful April, as well. If that could have been avoided, this would have been the perfect life affirming lesson...
I imagine you two will share a bond now that many horses and their moms and dads only dream of sharing. She KNOWS that YOU (along with your amazing vet, farrier, boyfriend, and mom, of course!) SAVED HER LIFE. She won't soon forget that. God clearly had a firm hand in this, and once He saw what YOU and your mare were willing to sacrifice for one another, it was as if He literally said, "I will make sure this woman and her fur child are blessed with daily improvement and healing, and I will ensure that everything moves along positively, just as it should..."
Anyhow, I don't mean to be wordy...I can't help myself sometimes. Your story is an amazing one. I am thrilled to have had the opportunity to be a tiny part of it through reading it, and I believe I learned a HUGE life lesson, as well, from what you all went through. May God CONTINUE to bless you and April along the path of life wherever it may lead you both...together!
"I'm too busy working on my own grass to notice if yours is greener"