Join Date: Mar 2009
Location: Central Iowa, USA
Yeah, it took alot of explaining to my parents that I can not, for my mental health, persue art as a career. Drawing has always been a sort of emotional release, takes me out my reality. If I made that into a job, it completely takes that away from me. I've made a decsion to myself that I won't ever take my drawing any farther than private commissions - that was I have the control of saying "no" if I need my own personal drawing time to re-establish myself.
I got carried away with commission type drawings a couple years ago when I first starting selling them for any sort of money. My drawings slowly started losing life, they were drawn for the money - not to capture the heart and emotion of the subject. Once that had been instilled into my brain, it took me over a year to get back to even half of how I used to draw. To just draw for the sake of drawing - not worrying about anatomy studies, shading practice, understanding gaits, etc - just drawing.
I've finally gotten back to a point to where I used to be, but I still have to check myself. When I do do a commission, I always take breaks to loosen back up in deathly fear of falling back into my old habit. I have to admit, that year of not really being able to draw for me, was one of the hardest, and most painful years of my life because I lost a crutial outlet of stress.
LOL - sorry about the person novel! I started and it just kept coming!