I understand what you're going through. I just sold my first, last, and only horse I've ever owned, Leia. The sadness didnt really hit me until a few weeks ago, when the new owner (a ten year old girl) needed help with cantering Leia and my trainer had me ride her. I balled as soon as I mounted; cantering broke my heart and when I jumped her I almost died. I thought it would be easier selling her to someone I knew, so I could see her often, and in some ways it is. But every time I see her being ridden by her new owners I feel like screaming, ripping the rider of and taking Leia back. That's weird, I know, but that's what it feels like.. :( I'm, again, very sorry for you. I hope you feel better about it soon.