I'm definitely going to be waiting awhile before getting another horse... I'd like to hopefully have a bit of money saved up and it'll probably be in the late spring at the very earliest if Indie leads me to the right horse.
I know I want to keep up riding and eventually get another horse, that's for certain... but that really is my biggest fear, whether I'll love the horse as much as Indie. I know that to some degree, I'll always compare horses to her. She really was one of a kind. Everybody who met her said that she was so well-behaved and such a sweetheart, and she was like that until the end. Even the vet had plenty of good things to say about how she was handling everything when I first got there.
I was looking forward to so many things with her. She was finally getting both her canter leads consistently and she was finally getting her hind end more engaged. I feel like we accomplished a lot together in such short time. I was looking forward to next year and maybe taking her to a local show for fun, or taking her to a local clinic. She was a special horse and there's no way around it, but I'm hoping one day that I'll be able to accept a new horse and be able to provide the same amount of love I provided for Indie.
I feel like horse ownership gave me something to strive for, a sense of dedication and of course, an unbreakable bond. I always wanted the best for her and I always tried to better myself to do that. I think in my eight years of riding, I have never had the privilege of working with a better horse. I can count the number of times I was frustrated with her on one hand, and those were just the first two rides while we adjusted to each other.
I'm really glad I can count on everyone here for support, because I don't feel like anyone around me really understands exactly. And I just wish that Indie would've shown signs so that we could've caught it before it ended her life, she didn't deserve it.
Forever loved, never forgotten; my beautiful Indie. <3 Hoofprints on my heart.