You're NOT a bad horse owner. **hugs** As you may have read, my two darling older horses passed away in 2009, and each was 27yo. Elderly horses accumulate health problems, and you nurse them and live through the problems. Some time in the future, when he's passed on to his great reward, you'll get a younger horse without these problems, like I have done, and they will amaze you with physical antics, like jumping up on all 4's after rolling, instead of struggling. My old guys even affected my 2 dogs. After they struggled to help my elderly QH, who got caste simply bc of a little hole AND his age, NOW they freak when my younger horses roll, and they're SURE that somebody is going to die! I threaten "basement" and "bad dog", but they HATE to see my 3 roll.