Its possible Celeste, but things just aren't quite adding up to me. I'm not sure why she'd want a stunted yearling with issues when we have plenty of other young horses (2,3,4 year olds) who can already be put into work, and a few weanlings and one other yearling as well.
I'm not going to lie though, Kenzie's starting to look like a very promising little horse if we can get her to grow to normal height, so it could be that she's seeing the potential and wanting to use it for something. I don't know her breeding very far back, but her sire and dam were both nicely built animals. As long as Kenzie is safe and happy, I don't care either way. I just want her to be well fed, able to be a horse, and healthy. I don't particularly like some of BO's trainer's methods of training, but she wouldn't be abused here...provided that we can keep all of those idiots off of our property anyways. They don't provide the quality of care that I like to see in horses, or the care I put into Kenzie, but I do have to realize that this is a training, therapy, and showing operation, so its not realistic to expect massages, chiros, top of the line supplements, etc., for every horse. They're all fed, trained, trimmed, and vaccinated, so I really can't complain.
I just hope that we've seen the last of the mutilations and trespassing. THATS why I was so set on getting Kenzie out of here.
Anyways, on to the next subject. I took some photos for you all last night but have to wait until later to upload them. They were just a few shots while she was in the stall eating dinner, because I had to go saddle up and chase a rouge heifer that thought it would be funny to break into our property and let her friends in from the neighboring farm xD I'm seeing only a little bit more fat on her body than a week ago, but she's definitely GLOSSY. I was really worried with the emanciation, rain rot, then lice, then laceration, her coat would be ruined for this summer, but its actually quite pretty. I know a lot of people aren't fond of browns but its starting to grow on me!
Its sad though. Before she was hurt, Kenzie really seemed to genuinely enjoy being around people and trusted me 100%. I could do whatever, whenever, and she'd just go 'Ok, that's fine! Great idea. I like you. Now what?' but ever since that night when I found her, her personality has changed drastically. Everyone says I'm just making a big deal out of nothing, and that she's the same as always...a bratty yearling, but something still seems so...off about her. I mean, I TOTALLY understand, she went through aweful trauma. I just wish I could make it better. She lets me catch her easily most of the time, but if I make a sudden move she'll get nervous and start moving away from me...not running like she doesn't want to be caught and is being a brat, but moving like she isn't sure what I'm going to do and she's on the verge of panicking. What even weirder is that she's fine in the pasture with me if I'm just hanging out around her, petting her, and she loves to have her neck and withers scratched, but as soon as I go to catch her (even holding her mane to keep her there, or haltering her), she immediately tenses up visibly. and you can tell she really isn't comfortable anymore. Again, she never acts like she's going to strike out, bite, kick, whatever, but rather like she expects me to do something terrible to her and she knows she can't avoid it. She startles easily (not spooking or bolting, but just flinching or jerking her head back), fidgets, and won't take her eyes off of me. She's probably expecting me to try to 'hurt' (clean) her ear again. She's perfectly obedient, gives me my space on the leadline, ponies well, backs up with pressure, ties, etc., but that worried look never leaves. I've also noticed that she's actually more pacey and fidgety when eating if I'm near her too, which makes me wonder if it wasn't the other mares who made her start it...but rather, me, and her lack of trust in me.
Once she's back in her pen, she's fine. Back to sweet, lovable Kenzie. But as soon as she's out again, or I'm about to catch her, its like she switches personalities on me again, and is timid, nervous, and worried all of the time. I don't know how to fix it. I've tried just taking her out to groom her and let her hand graze, I've tried tying her and just 'hanging out' around her so she'd see I don't always want to do something to her, I've tried taking her to do 'fun' things like trail walks, but she still acts nervous. At the same time though, it doesn't seem like she's terrified of me particularly, because she'll cower behind me if something is scary that she doesn't understand (dogs, new horses, people) and she'll seek me out in the pasture so I can pet her... it just doesn't make sense to me!
Sorry, rant over xD I know I'm expecting too much of her and that she's been through a lot of trauma, but before all of this I'd just begun to start seeing the 'baby' side of Kenzie that liked to leap around in the pen for fun, destroy her stall and anything within her reach while I was gone, and 'help' me with chores. And now its like I'm a stranger to her again, one that can't be completely trusted. Even after two months.
Everyone in your life is meant to
be in your journey, but not all of
them are meant to stay till the end.