Well, if you can I would probably try to get someone local to take her just to get yourself relief! You will know where she is going and that someone can take on your burden and really not consider it a burden. Because they love her! That would be awesome! I really do not see an end for you until you either own her, find her a home or just walk away! And how do you do that after all you have been through. Gah!
I'm considering starting to look. I'm hoping she'll take the initiative and start hunting on her own so I don't get stuck in the middle again though. Its not too fun xD I don't think I can just walk away though. I have too much poured into her to just abandon her now when things are confusing. That's what pretty much everyone at home is telling me to do, but it just doesn't seem...right to me. There has to be another way. If I walked away, I'd have to leave the farm entirely, and both people and animals would suffer because I've become so entwined in how things are run.
On a happier subject, today was absolutely amazing! I forgot my camera so I took some photos on my phone, but my phone is being stupid and saying 'insufficient memory' when I try to text them to my email so I can retrieve them. I'll keep trying. Kenzie was AWESOME today though. Normal poo to begin with, then I guess she was really feeling good today because when I let her back out into the pasture after she had breakfast, she decided to do a few victory laps around the perimeter. What she thought she won, I don't know, but I won't lie, I cried. I never cry. In this ENTIRE time that I've been working with her, rehabbing her and healing her, I've only seen her canter once and it was because another mare chased her. Otherwise she has just jogged around at WP horse pace, placid and looking more like a 20 year old nag than a 1 year old filly. Today though, for the very first time, I saw her playing just because she could!!! She made at least 3 laps at a full out run, neighing and kicking up her heels before slowing down and giving me her best arabian impression, head and tail high in the air. I so wish I had a video recording of it sort something, but I don't think that image will ever come out of my head. She looked like the racing bred, happy, carefree yearling that she's supposed to be for the first time today. I was beginning to give up hope that I'd ever see any real spirit in her.
Of course, that probably means she'll have more energy to act up now...LOL. It was pretty funny though, because Bess (her pasture mate) and the horses in the other pen were just staring her like she was an idiot. They all know its WAAAY too hot to move more than absolutely necessary, but she sure didn't care.
Also, I guess she was pretty itchy today and that ended up being to my benefit. We're still working on the head shy issue with the injured ear, so after I did a little bit of ground work with her today (we're learning to walk over the dreaded bridge!) I decided to give her a bath. Started scrubbing away, and she was really relaxing into it and was nearly asleep so I decided to try washing the top part of her mane and neck which she highly dislikes. She was totally fine with it so I just kept working higher, massaging and scratching her, and she actually let me scratch her poll and rub her damaged ear. Apparently she decided it felt good too because she started groaning, cocking her head, and wiggling her lip too. It was pretty funny. I just hope she remembers today and realized I'm not trying to chop off her ear again!
It's nice to read that's she's doing well after that first post I read. I'd gladly cut someone's ear off for doing something like that. All ire aside, you're a hell of a person to endure everything you have. I wish I could afford to take on another horse! I just wanted to say that despite all that's bad in people, you're a good reason to have faith in humanity. Good luck with finding a place for her.
Unfortunately we never did find out who did it...too little to go on, too many possibilities, and not even evidence according to the police...who I think were less than helpful. It makes me mad that they just blew it off. Thankfully though, BO bought some surveillance cameras and they're hooked up and running now, so if this (or anything else) happens again we can hopefully catch the person. Hopefully that's enough.
So I DID bring my camera today, brushed Kenzie off and made her pretty, went to get my camera, and found that the batteries had died >.> So annoying! I'll go get some more soon but in the mean time I did manage to get one picture off of my phone. Low quality as always, but its something right? XD
You can't tell in the picture but her coat has really bleached out in the sun. She is still thin, as always, but I can't believe how much her mane has grown in the past month or two! Yay for mane suppliments! Lol. Her hips still look so sunken in though. I'm not sure why.
And now for the BEST news <333 I'm so excited. I finally figured out why she isn't getting thicker. She really HAS been growing! I've been putting off measuring her for a while now because I didn't want to be disappointed, but she's bulked up lately and I've realized she's been a lot harder to see over. I think she just went through another growth spurt too so today I was like 'Ok. Time to see if baby is any bigger!' Imagine my surprise when I tape her at the wither (could be off by a bit, mind you. I tried my best though.) to be 13hh and 1/2 of an inch. Her butt is even taller (another growth spurt?) and is 13.1hh!!! I'm so happy. She has also officially outgrown her blue raggedy halter, but no worried. Sunset Halters received my order and is working on it already, so it should be here within a week or so they're great people with awesome customer service, just as you guys said. They have outdated information on their website for the invoice used with Money Orders, so I sent them a bit less than the actual cost. When they realized that, they let me know but they aren't charging me any more than was on the paper. Very kind of them.
Kenzie meets the chiropractor tomorrow :) I noticed (don't how I didn't notice before) that a very small area between her ribs feels kind of sunken in today, which is weird...didn't hurt her to press on it but its worrying me. I'm going to ask the chiro about it tomorrow (she's vet certified too) if I can. Hopefully it isn't anything terrible.
Also, Kenzie got her first round bale (well, she has to share with Bess too, but shhhh) today and LOVES it.
Lastly, can horses eat when they have cribbing collars on? I think I'm going to have to get Kenzie one. She has started cribbing and making a weird burping (wind sucking) sound when she's standing in the run in to eat, even if there is hay in front of her :/
Perfect. I'll buy her one then. Any suggestions? I think I'll have to order it because TSC and Steinhausers don't have them. Maybe one with padding for comfort? I was trying to avoid getting her one, but I'm really worried she's going to make herself colic.