Thanks everyone, it really does mean alot to me. <333 so much more than I could ask for. As for support I will be alone because everyone has work, I took it off but it's okay because I deal better with things when I'm alone and can think. All I can think about now is how good she looks out in her pasture but I know a different day she will be worse, and some days she will be better. A majority of her days are bad so I have to put her down its for whats best.
D; D; D; I hateeee this. It's better it happens when I'm here to do it humanely then her suffocating to death when I'm not home.
Blahhh thanks everyone for the support and the stories, they helped me alot. I also made bracelets from her tail hair for everyone who was close to her.