Oh, my....I just saw this. I can't even imagine the pain you must be feeling. I'm sending hugs for you and all your family.
Posting on the forum, when you are feeling so raw, is a good healing process. It is wonderful to receive all of the support from so many others.
We care about one another....even when we squabble.
And to Allison, the reason we squabble is because we care :)