Originally Posted by Walkamile
I know those that have lost a cherished horse or pet in fact, know what I'm saying. I know that the tightness in my chest will ease, that the racking sobs will also ease. Just have to get through it I suppose.
You are allowed to grieve. You lost a cherished companion who was a part of your life and owned a piece of your soul.
I promise you, it gets easier. Not necessarily better, but easier. You will never not miss her, but the jagged, painful wound won't be so raw in time. You'll eventually be able to think and speak of her with smiles and laughter instead of grief and tears.
I couldn't even say Conny's name for the first year after his death without bursting into tears. Five years later, I still shed a tear now and then over him, but the good memories far outweigh the bad ones of his death and loss.
It's a steep price to pay for their companionship, but I paid it gladly. I wouldn't have missed those 21 years I shared with him no matter the cost.
My favorite quote that sums it up for me: I could have missed the pain, but I'd have had to miss the dance.
I wouldn't have missed that 21 year dance for anything, and I'm certain you feel the same way.
Hugs, dear. We really do understand.