How can I cope without you hear to be with me!
Hi guys, I'm crying as I write this as I can't bear the thoughts of his death in my head, I don't know what to do please help!
Aft almost a year I still can't get over what happened. Some of you may have seen my other thread called sonnys story, writing that was hard enough writing this is almost unbearable.
I just want sonny to know how much I love him and that if I could I would bring him back. My life feels like its all fallen to pieces and that a piece of me is missing without you here. I want people to know who you were and your amazingly brave story. You were the best horse I could ever dream of and so brave in your final moments. Ill never know what made those women lie about what happened and why the couldn't be honest. I wouldn't have blamed them if they had told the truth. I love you with all my heart and just want you to know you will never be forgotten as long as I live. I'm sorry you died at such a young age, I would have done anything for you even if it meant me getting hurt. I hope you know how much you mean to me and tat your legacy will live on forever you could have taught so many people many things and had such a bright future ahead of you. I still ask myself the same questions over and over again everyday!
What did I to make it all go wrong?
Was it fate?
Why those women lied?
I don't know why I do this as I know it will never bring you back:(
Thinking about facing the rest of my life without you is unbearable I don't know how I will do it.
Sorry everyone for lumbering you with my problems but I needed to get this down somewhere I feel so alone without him and I don't know what to do to stop feeling this way!
Once again I love you with all my heart and soul Sonny<3
Gone but Never forgotten!
Love you my sweet angel<3