So I got a call from my trainer this morning at 4:55, I knew something was wrong, but I didn't answer my phone. Then 5 minutes later my sister came in my room crying, saying that Lana, the mare I've been riding/training for a year, is colicking and she may have to be put down.
Then at 6:35 my sister told me she didn't make it. She was colicking from 10 at night until 6:30 in the morning.
I'm so upset, she was such a great horse, a bit bratty, but that's what I loved about her.
It also upsets me because I was at the farm until 9 last night, and she seemed OK, she was manuring and she at her dinner, and the treats I gave her, but she did roll once and she seemed tired (which is not too unusual, because she was super lazy, and always tired). I have seen her roll in her stall a few times, so it didn't seem strange to me. But it makes me think that she was probably colicking then, and I didnt do anything about it.
I know I shouldn't blame myself, but I can't help but think what if.
Anyway, it just happened so suddenly, she was supposed to be bred at the end of this month. But I got to ride her one last time on Monday, and she got to buck me off one last time too.
Writing this made me feel a little better...and thanks for reading.