Last night Lacey began colicking really badly.
She had never shown colic signs before this.
The vet was out fast, but it was bad. We got her all doped up ut her pain level was really high - a 1000lb dose of banamine was only lasting her 2 hours before she was in major pain again. And she's the most stoic horse I've met!
So I sat with her for hours this morning, recounting every adventure we had ever gone on and thanking her for a life well lived. And for how well she took care of me through everything.
Then I did what I had promised her I would do, and we let her go.
The vet, who had just met her last night [our normal vet wasn't able to make it, unfortunately] sobbed through the whole thing.
Maybe it's terrible, but to see a relative "stranger" be so affected by Lacey, even as Lacey was leaving us.....it was really a microcosm for Lacey's entire life right there.
She touched so many people, taught so many kids to ride and feel safe on a horse's back, she taught ME to feel safe on a horse's back...she was truly one in a bajillion.
And in keeping with her life time of teaching, last night I had to sedate her and, despite my fear of injecting things, I gave her the shot all by myself - on the first try.
I just don't know what I'm going to do without her. I haven't gone a day in 3 years where I didn't see her at least twice a day...
The vet said it was one of the most peaceful and ready passings she had seen.
Lacey just laid right down and was gone.
But she's not really gone, I can still feel her. Maybe I will always feel her, that would be good.
Run free, sweet girl.
Go be the sassiest Unicorn heaven has to offer.
Go see your friends, I'll see you in a while.