Jore - I haven't said much other then my condolences in your other thread. I've kept up with you though ;). You've needed to let it out. And grief is so very different for each of us. Your pain is your own and it's private and you've earned the right to feel it. I wish you many blessings.
I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end
The way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd have had to miss the dance.
As badly as it hurts right now, I guarantee, you never would have wanted to miss that dance. (((( hugs ))))