I am truly sorry for your loss. I know how heart-ripping it can be to have a horse taken away so suddenly. When my first horse passed, he shattered his leg in the night and had to be put down in the morning. I almost went into shock, he was just not meant to die when he did. I will never, ever forget sitting by him after he died stroking his face and the immense feeling of being surrounded by a deep black. This happened this spring, and I still think about him often. The first week or two was absolutely excruciating for me, I didn't want to be around anyone and I broke down crying non-stop, just by thinking about him. A few weeks later I rode another horse with one of his saddle pads and I was tearing up for more than half the ride. The pain of his loss will never leave me, but now I can think back clearly to the good times we had and how he saved my life from self-harm when nobody would support me instead of his unfortunate death. Even as I write this, I am starting to tear up. I guess that losing a very close horse is extremely painful, and I feel like a part of me left with him and I will never get it back. I'm sorry if I sound more depressing than helpful, I am just sharing my experience.
Last edited by roro; 10-05-2009 at 11:58 PM.