We where friends from the first time I sore you, My mum had him for 16 years she broke and backered him in herself which means he had been in my life from the very beggining as im only 14. I can't explain the love I had for him.
It was one day I went to the barn and his eyes where really watering and he was really shaking, we phoned the vet and they came out but wasnt really sure what was a matter as they done blood tests and he was fine.
The next dayhe was worst. This tieme he was shaking, watering eyes and he kept leaning against his stable wall. I knew there was something seriosuly wrong with him by this stage but I held strong and phoned the vet but they still didnt know. All of a sudden he started recovering but unfforutintly he went back down hill and started collapsing again. But I wasnt at the stables when this was happening, I was at hospital with a family member and it was only the next day I found out.
Over the week the vets put it down to a stroke or brain tumor.
They were sticking tubes down him and everything he was in destress.
He lost all his meomory and even forgot how to walk out of the stable. My mum looked after him for a while but no one could get near him any more. He was in shock, he was scared.
Where he had collapsed he had huge bledding open wounds on him and no one could get near him to treat them except from me:(
After not seeing him for a while when I next sore him I really noticed the difference. I finaly persuaded him to step one foot out of teh stable but he was scared and run back in and callapsed. It was this time I decided to have him put down as he was in so much pain. I was withhim when he was put down and when he was down he rested his head in my hand and his muzzle nudged me. I kissed him on the ckeck and flt his heavy head get heavyer. That's when I realised he was gone.
I was crying my eyes out and words can't explain what I felt like. I was speaking to him prayer for him to come back. And saying sorry for saying you was a nutter don't listen to tehm people who said you have something wrong inside your head. I know you can't hear me but I love you.
I cryed everynight for that month and people told me to stop as he couldnt hear me and it wouldnt make no difference.
The only thing that gives me hope still is when my mum tells me not to worry as his looking down on me, protecting me, and he wouldnt want me to be this way.
You know how our horse and rider bonds get, its something magical, you can't explain it., you can't hear it, you can't taste it., you can only feel it. Ever since I met him I bonded and have loved him untill his very last breath! Now that he has gone I realise how much I need him. And how much he was my bestfriend not only my horse.
I learned everything on this horse, I was even aboutt o attend horse of teh year show
I guess things happen and I just need to move on.
IF I COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY WITH TEARS I've CRYED FOR YOU.
I WOULD STEP RIGHT UP TO HEAVEN TO LAY RIGHT NEXT TO YOU.