I'm on the verge of tears. "Never Say Never " by The Fray is playing on my iPhone.:'(
I am so sorry for you loss, I hope in time your wounds will heal..horses fill gaps in our heart. They are what we don't have in ourselves, or what we wish to see in ourselves. When they leave, it's like half of us just died along with them. I'm not saying that wound will never be completely healed, but that it might be well patched and able to let another horse into your heart. It's been over 4 (Now I feel like crap..can't remember when he passed) years since my gelding Mango passed away, and I still think of him on a daily basis, give me enough time alone and I will still cry my eyes out. But, I know God took him from me to end his pain, and that he is making somebody very happy in heaven. And I am sure it's the same with Relan.