Oh, I'm so sorry! Like smrobs said, most of us have been there and we know what you're going through right now. It'll take time, but one day you'll be able to talk about him again with smiles instead of tears...
Thanks guys:) its been so hard:( he had laminitous, and if he got bad I would of have to set a date for the vet to come out..but I think Jiff knew that I wouldnt be able to handle that. He got colic yesterday morning and by 5 he was so bad and sweety. I think he let go for me, and I think he knew it was okay.
When I asked my parents and the vet to leave me alone with him, he was laying down..and he barley had any strength left but he picked his head up and looked at me and whinned. It just broke my heart. I sat down and he layed his head in my lap, and I told him it was okay top let go, and I told him I was going to be alright. I thanked him for everything he had done for me, and I told him I would never forget him. The we had to take him outta his stall and I brought him in the sunlight and I let him eat grass..and then I had to say my last goodbye. Ever scense I was little I told him" you are a great champion, when you ran the ground shook, the sky opend, and mere mortals parted.parted the way to victory, where ill meet you in the winners circle and put a blanket of flowers on your back." so I told him that one last time. He raped his head around my body and I hugged him. I gave him one last kiss on the nose, to feel his warm breath one last time. I couldnt stay to watch so my dad stayed their with him and my mom took me home. But when I was walking away to the car, he wouldnt stop looking at me..and whinning to me. He whinned till I was all the way down the drive way, and my dad said that he vever stoped looking for me. I miss him so much I can't even explain it.
Aww its okay sweetie he knowed you loved him and he knew you wanted whats best for him at least he's not in pain anymore! Just read the rainbow bridge if you send me pics of him I will make a slideshow or attempt a collage for you online!