Terrible? It's dangerous. Toes up, heels down.
You need to work on your two-point on the flat and over poles. Concentrate on sinking most of your weight into your heels and distributing the contact of your leg through your upper thigh and calf... leaving your knee light on the saddle, rather than the only point of contact.
Your butt/body you want over the center of the saddle, not crouched over the pommel and your hands. Think of it as squatting over the saddle, rather than a forward motion.
Once your weight is in your legs rather than your hands, you need to practice a release... preferably a crest release grabbing mane till you are steady.
If your horse says no, you either asked the wrong question or asked the question wrong
And God took a handful of southerly wind, blew His breath over it and created the horse