Thanks guys. I've been keeping my chin up and looking around. And if it wasn't any harder I'm limited on the gender of horse I can get. At my barn I am not allowed to have a mare. I can only have a gelding or a colt and geld the colt. The only problem is, all of the horses I find that are built the way I want them to be are mares. =/
I know I made the right decision on this one, I just couldn't take the chance of something happening to me and I am PARANOID when it comes to their legs and feet. I know so many people who have barrel raced horses that didn't have sound and strong legs and the horses were broken down before they were 12.
Milk- I do intend and hope for my future horse to take me far in the barrel world, so it is extremely important to me that I get one that is built sound and sturdy for the job.
Thanks for the encouragment guys. I'm going to continue looking with my head high and I am determined to not fall in love with a horse until I physically have it at my barn.