I posted some videos a little while ago, but have found a couple more. Bare with me, there are a few! Essentially, I had a fall a little while ago that really shook my confidence. It was at my first show bumping up to 2'9 and I wasn't as prepared as I thought I was, ended up hurting both of my ankles, hitting my hair fairly hard and then falling again at the same show. After that I developed a LOT of anxiety over fences and have been working super hard at regaining confidence (particularly over oxers, they terrified me) and at the same time 'fixing' my position, because I started to get into the habit of pulling to nothing and getting really tense on the approach. I went back down to 2'3 and have since started working back up (with the help of a coach, of course!). I'd like general critique, and any tips you guys might have to improve my riding.
The first two videos are of my pre-fall, my legs are weirdly forward but you can see that I trusted him a lot more then AND he trusted me a lot more, wasn't trying to 'get away' with stuff. The third video is of my first show after my fall, doing a 2'3 to 2'6 round, I was so nervous beforehand because at that point I was still TERRIFIED of oxers, and after my first run out / refusal I was already in tears and before the second to last oxer pulled him off of it and had a full blown panic attack which you can totally see in the video so please ignore the red-faced hyperventilating shock:.
SO after all of that I think Jackson picked up some bad habits and learned how to dive out of my aids, so what I need to learn how to do again is start riding a little more aggressively to fences. I've gotten into the habit of seeing an out and giving it to him, which is just going to completely backfire in the future. SO you can totally see that in the next three videos, which were this past weekend. Aside from that though I feel like I'm gaining a little more confidence, especially over oxers, now my biggest issue is with bending lines (him learning he can get away from my aids) and combinations, they still terrify me BUT I'm getting better. The last video is of my unjudged round, he ducked out of the second fence of the one stride (ie: I gave him an out) but we got to continue through the course and we did it the second time around to finish, which was good! There were a bunch of people on the sidelines yelling at me to put on my right leg very helpful spectators.
TRYING to figure out putting the videos on here properly.