My Weight Loss/Gain History. This is how I got where I am today ... the good, the bad, and the ugly.
I was a healthy, robust teen who was approx 135lbs and never did a workout (intentionally) or diet in my life to that point. I just enjoyed life. I rode horses, I loved long walks, 4-wheeler riding, swimming, etc. Life was great!
Then I got married
Ok so seriously - I got married on Aug.26th 2000. When I got married I was average weight for my height (I'm 5'7" tall). I was averaging between 150-155lbs. I was healthy and still just enjoying life. Then 2001 I got pregnant! YAY! We were so excited! However, after my very first Dr.appointment, I had a miscarriage. I could barely control the tears. It was awful. Up until then - that was the hardest thing I ever went through. I cried daily. And every time I seen a baby or a pregnant lady. Then approx a month and a half later - PREGNANT AGAIN!! All that excitement came rushing back! Although I'll admit by now I was somewhat hesitant to be over joyed for fear of miscarrying again. Well, 1 month - all good. 2 months - all good. 3 months - a TEENY TINY spot in my underware. I called the nurse and told them. They said it was probably nothing, but I should come in and get an ultrasound. So I did. That's when things got worse than ever before. I had an ectopic (aka Tubal) pregnancy. Since I was already 3 months along they had to do an Emergency scopic surgery. I couldn't even leave - it had to be done right away. Again, I couldn't cope. This was even worse than before. It was like having my heart (what was left of it) ripped from my body and tore apart piece by piece and stomped all over on the floor. I was devastated. We stayed at my parents house for the 2 weeks following the scopic surgery. I had a VERY tough recovery. It was awful. I also went into depression. If I wasn't depressed already from my miscarriage - I was SURE depressed by now. Between those two little babies that I lost - I GAINED 30some lbs! I'm sure you can say it was due to a mixture of stress and depression. I never took that 30some lbs back off. EVER - to date! So by then I was weighing in at between 180-185lbs.
That's when I went through my time of rebellion. I rebelled against God, my church, my husband, my family. It was an awful time and our marriage almost fell apart.
Then MIRACULOUSLY I got pregnant with our beautiful Sweet Jasmine. The year was 2003 and my due date was for Jan.2004. That girl was the best thing that happened to us at that point! (and currently she's one of the two best things that has EVER happened to us). She saved me ... AND saved US. I straightened my life up and turned myself around. I went back to church, I stopped doing all the rebellious things I was doing,etc. January 7th 2004 our Precious Miracle was born at 8:53am. I had gained 48lbs during my pregnancy with her (I ate like a piggy, plus ended up with preeclampsia - aka toximia). I was in the hospital for 3 days with contractions trying to have her and she would not come out so finally they took her via c-section. She was (and still is) perfect! Perfect!
Anyway - back to the weight ... I barely lost any of the weight that I put on while pregnant with her. I carried it around for years. Then I got serious and started eating healthy and working out, and I lost 30lbs in 3months (eating like I mentioned in my goals in the post above). Then my Pap died. That was a huge blow. We knew the day was coming - he had cancer. He looked nothing like himself and was deteriorating fast. So we knew it was coming soon. But it was still a big blow. As soon as he passed away - so did my healthy lifestyle. That's when the meals from friends and family started coming in, and deserts of all kinds. I ate like a pig. And continued to for a while - until I gained all the weight back.
2006 I got pregnant again. ANOTHER TUBAL. I was devestated again, but somewhat expectant of it, which is sad. That's when the Dr. told me that his estimate is that I only have a 50% chance of ever having a healthy pregnancy again (in my uterus instead of a tubal in other words).
Well atleast we had Jasmine. That's what helped me "keep it together." And I was eventually (after some time) Ok with it. It didn't matter to me anymore. I was happy with what God gave us.
Well - then in Nov.2009 I find out I'm pregnant AGAIN! Of course for ME all the fears come rushing back ... miscarriage, tubal, surgery, depression, body changes. I went to a specialist ... only to find out that I had a perfectly healthy pregnancy and baby! Miracle number TWO!!! On May 28th 2010 our BEAUTIFUL little Jessica was born! I'll never forget the moment they pulled her from my uterus (repeat c-section) and I heard her first cry! Nothing will ever take that memory away from me. Now she's 7 months old and a bubbly bouncy (almost crawling) bundle of joy and pride! We love her so much! And her big sister simply ADORES her! (and vice versa) Anyway - with my pregnancy with Jessica I put on almost 50lbs again. BUT within the first 2 weeks I dropped 30lbs!!! (goodness, if ONLY we could lose that much weight that FAST any other time!) However, ever since the 30lbs came off, I haven't dropped anymore.
SO now I'm at 238lbs. I WANT to be at somewhere between 135-155lbs.
I have ALOT of work to do!
But I know I can do it. I just need the will power and the encouragement. I gotta stick to my guns!
Well, sorry this got so long, hopefully it wasn't to boring to follow. But that's me and my weight issues in a nut shell (a really big nut shell .. lol)
Hopefully I can keep this thread going with pictures and updates (I'll go look for some pictures now, although I don't have many since I'm heavy - that's one reason why I'm always the one BEHIND the Camera!)