Ok.. So would you guys mind reading my email before I send it off? Gahhh I am so dreading this.
To the person who asked why I'm afraid to disappoint her, because she's my friend. Just because its the right thing to do doesn't make it easy. Think about if it were you? It would break my heart hearing that I couldn't do what I love because of something I'm already so self-conscious and insecure about.
So, here's my first draft of the email.
So, I'm feeling pretty awful right now. I don't really know how to say this, but I'm worried about Breezie's feet and past lameness issues and when the farrier came out to look at her, her back was a little sore. She hasn't shown soreness since then, but I'm kinda paranoid about her because my entire business is riding on her, literally. There's a 20% rule that vets recommend for the amount of weight a horse can carry. A horse can carry 20% of their weight, Breezie is about 1100 pounds. Plus, with her past issues with lameness, I'm just really afraid to risk it with her. You're such an awesome friend and I love hanging out with you! I want you to come out and hang out at the ranch still, there are a ton of things that Breezie could use work with from the ground, like lunging and ground driving. There are other horses out there that the owners have offered to let me work with, and I bet they'd be fine with you getting them out and giving them a good (and much needed) grooming. Please don't be mad at me. I'm really sorry. I'm just trying to do what's best. I'll be out at the ranch all day on Saturday and you're more than welcome to come out. I have lessons at 9 and 1, but if you want to come out and get a pony fix, please do. You're awesome, and I know how hard you're trying, and I know how much horses coming back into your life means to you, and I don't want to take that away from you. I'll talk to you later buddy.