Originally Posted by hberrie
I know this is a strange post, but I am trying to stop drinking and realizing that I am scared to death to ride my horse without it. ...........
You have taken a really big/good step by admitting it to yourself. You have also taken a HUGE and difficult step by acknowledging it publicly.
I know it's easy for me to say, but please remember: it's not how many times you fall, but how many times you get up! Keep your eyes on the prize and don't ever give up!!!
The fear that has crept into your riding experience is, I suspect, quite unnerving. However, you can beat it! Riding stone sober may be a difficult thing, but it won't always be.
I remember watching an interview with a famous rock and roll singer who literally couldn't remember what it was like to perform while sober. However, he had gotten to a place in his life where he HAD to get sober or "slip off the edge" and wind up in deep trouble..... What really stuck with me about the interview was that after he succeeded in totally kicking alcohol, he was scared and totally unnerved at the thought of performing sober. However, he worked through it and ultimately beat the fear.
You can do it. And I'm telling you now, and I mean it: I will pray for you to specifically work through and get totally past this fear. DO NOT GIVE UP! You will look back at some point and will be so glad that you did not give up....