Then I did some cantering with her. (I don't canter her that often, because I'm working at mostly walking and trotting right now). But she was fine for a few circles. Then I decided to cross the arena and change direction, wanting to see if she would do a flying lead change on her own. She did it, I think. But then I think she may have tripped a bit. Plus, I was looking down to see if she had changed it. I turned her quickly as I was doing this (too quickly probably) because there was a bunch of orange pylons and I was trying to avoid them. I think she spooked at them because she suddenly reared up, then let out a buck and I went flying and landed really hard, smacking my head off the ground. I am soooo incredibly glad I was wearing my helmet!!
Two girls who were watching came rushing over to see if I was okay. Jubilee got scared when she saw me on the ground, shied away from me and trotted off. (Thanks, horsie. :P ). Jaclyn came running in and grabbed her first, not wanting her to get tangled in her reins and disciplined her a bit. I was trying really hard not to cry. Like, I didn't hurt that bad, but still ... my pride was wounded, of course, I felt like an idiot. And I'm always a leaky bucket. So I kind of just sat there for a minute, shaking. Jaclyn and Vicky made sure I was ok.
One of the first things I said was, "I need to get back on." I went and grabbed Jubilee who by now was calm and completely fine, brought her over to the mounting block and got back on. I didn't feel scared, just kind of mad. The first thing I did was bring her back over to the pylon and let her sniff around it and stuff. She was fine with it. Then I trotted, and finally brought her up to canter again. I did both directions for a couple laps and she was fine. I didn't ask her for another flying lead change though.
And yeah, then I walked her out and stuff and both of us were fine. I was a little mad at her though. Although it was probably my fault for getting so ambitious and doing a flying lead and stuff. I don't know ... I wasn't scared. Like I got back on and stuff and I'm riding her this Saturday. I just felt crappy, you know? Like it's humiliating and I felt bad that she got scared too. Like why did she want me off so bad? I misjudged it yes, but I wasn't making her mad the rest of the time I was riding her, I was really soft on her mouth and she was responding well.
I don't know ... I'll be ok. It's just, falls are sometimes just really crappy. As I'm sure a lot of you can relate!
Sorry my post is so long and thanks for reading guys...
Pep talk anyone? Haha.