Yeah, my confidence took another beating today.
Everything was all good for a while.
We did a few circles around the ring before our instructor told us we were going to go for a trail ride(or paddock ride as it was only in the paddocks). That was all good, except Sonnett want a little fast, but nothing what I couldn't handle. Then we went to the arena and was going to work on our trotting rythm. That is where everything went bad. First we were trotting in a small circle. Nothing wrong there. Then we began trotting around the whole arena. Everything was fine. My rythm wasn't good because I was still trying to learn it. But then I got a stitch in my stomach. I didn't go up and down as much(not to mention me leaning forward out of habit) and Sonnett took that as an aid to canter or gallop(don't know which but it was really fast) The first time I just grabbed the pommel bit of the saddle and held on for several seconds before changing my mind and making him do a circle. He then slowed down. I got my stirrups back and I was really freaked but I didn't give up. After a minute break I was back trying to get the trotting rythm. But his buddy(girlfriend) Melody was in front of us and she was trotting faster and I wasn't going up and down as much and I was still leaning forward and so he ran toward Melody. This time I went flying forwards and it felt like slow motion. I knew I was going to fall off and all of a sudden a sat back and was making him do a circle. When he stopped I sat there shakily and readjusted my stirrups. And then all of a sudden my riding instructor was trotting over. And she was like "Are you alright? I was yelling instructions but I was scared you were going to fall off." and then I burst into tears(again) she told me what I was doing wrong and then she said "I am proud of you. Most beginners wouldn't have been able to keep on like that. You have very good balance." Then she lead me on a lead rope for the last 3 minutes until we were leaving the arena and heading in, then she unclipped it and let me walk Sonnett by myself back in.
But I am still really shaky about that. How can I get myself not to lean forwards or not to sit down while trotting. Is it also because I had a stitch?
Yeah, well my first lesson after 2 weeks was awful....