Conflicted about riding lessons...
I'm trying to decide whether or not I should try learning how to ride horses again. I took lessons for about a year when I was ten, but I was a very timid rider and eventually quit because I was tired of being so nervous about the lesson for sometimes days before hand. However, I think maybe if I got over my fear of riding I would really love it, since I used to be very uncomfortable around horses in general, but I've been volunteering at a theraputic horseback riding center for a while and I love being around the horses and taking care of them.
At first when I got there, I was really jumpy and my heart was racing when I was tacking and grooming and bathing, etc. the horses, but after just a few weeks I can't wait to get there every Sunday and even though I do get a bit nervous, I overall feel very comforable and the nervousness is more of a natural reaction than actually being scared. It doesn't really seem to make sense that I would feel more comfortable as a volunteer, when it is your job to take care of the children, and then to feel scared when I'm the one being taken care of, but that's the way it is.
I would think this was just because I am older now (I'm fifteen) and bigger so horses aren't as scary but I did go for a trail ride just this summer, and found it just as nervewracking as when I was ten! I would definetly go ahead and try lessons again, but I just don't want it to end up like it was when I was younger and my experience riding just made me more scared. So basically, do you think I should give it a try?