feel your pain. It is really easy for me to get intimidated too. My horse is too spooky. I wonder if you should look into trading for an older, calmer horse. I know that I should, but I have so much invested in this horse, and she is what I wanted all my life. (Back when my body was younger......... )
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This^^^^ was me with the mare who broke my ribs. I cut my losses and found her a new home and bought an older gelding that had been a kid's show horse. Although I have yet to ride him here, I did ride him without fear when I bought him. And I have been riding my old trail mare more and more. It's true, the more I ride her and remember what a good girl she is the better I feel about riding in general. Funny thing tho, she used to be my "wild and crazy" mare, and replaced my old tried and true mare who gave me confidence. Now she's the one giving me back the confidence that the young silly mare took away!
And the last time I rode my good girl, I stupidly put her in a situation where she spooked. She came out of it without a lot of fuss and I rode right through it with no fear because I have gotten more relaxed with her from riding her again. I was really mad at myself for causing the problem, but pretty pleased that I wasn't afraid, know what I mean?