So I am at this point in my riding that I expect more of myself and I just keep falling short.
I've been riding my entire life but just hoping on a riding around, horses always scared me and I was timid. Last fall rode in a few play days and decided that I really liked this. I went to a Martha Josey camp in November and started riding more over the past four months when my Aunt brought her horses to my house after her divorce.
This week has been tough in my personal life so like any horse person would do I spent a lot of time in the saddle, getting to know my new mare; or just sitting in the feed trough while my gelding, my heart horse, eats rattling on about anything and everything.
The past two days I have been riding hard with my Aunt practicing the barrel pattern. My new mare which I've had for two weeks plowed over two barrels, all on my account. I keep forgetting minor things like forgetting to slide my hand down in a turn, keeping my feet forward, dropping my outside rein to soon, or over anticipating and causing her to do the same. I feel like I shouldn't be making these mistakes. I'm still not ready to run my gelding, who is a very experienced very fast barrel horse who gets really antsy and knows his job, at his full potential. It might be crazy that a novice rider rides an experienced "hot" horse but he's my love and we get along so well even at a slow run!
I set small goals for myself and have achieved them so far. Every run I've made has been faster and faster, two play days and one actual barrel race. I just don't feel like I'm progressing the way I should and I'm so discouraged. I wanna go and turn and burn and I just can't yet I've always been an over achiever and pressure myself I guess I do that with my riding too.
Do any of y'all ever feel that way?