I'm an adult beginner-ish rider; I've been riding once a week for a little over a year now after a 10 year absence from riding when I was a kid. A month and a half ago I had a bad fall at the canter that knocked the wind (and my confidence) right out of me and left me in pretty bad pain for over a week. My trainer and I aren't really sure what happened.. seemed like I lost my balance in a turn and slid off. I felt extremely disoriented when I fell; I thought I had been dreaming when I hit the ground. I had fallen twice before that in the past year but I had gotten right back on each time. This fall terrified me.
I think I went three weeks or so without riding after that, due to pain and scheduling issues. I haven't been on the same horse for my past two lessons, but I've been a mess at the canter. My confidence is bust. I thought I could take it easy for a while, but my trainer insists the only way I'll get over it is if I canter. It's frustrating me because I can't keep the canter for longer than halfway around the ring. Then my trainer gets frustrated... and it's making me not want to ride.
Tomorrow she's putting me back on the horse I fell off of, and I don't feel confident on him at all (he's getting back in shape after 6 months of not being ridden after being rescued from a bad situation); the other horse is sick. But my trainer only has access to two lesson horses since it is mostly a boarding barn. I absolutely love horses and used to look forward to riding all week... now I'm seriously considering taking a break from it because all I feel is fear and frustration. Is this normal? Has anyone else felt this way at some point during their riding? I don't know if a break would be good or bad for me. I'd love some advice.
I realize some of my other threads have the same theme; I'm never really around any other students at the barn (at least ones I'd feel comfortable talking to), and my only horsey friend fears nothing as she's been playing polo for a few years now.