I know how you feel .. recently my horse spooked and then bucked me hardly and it
Hurted me so much , and I was afraid to get on him again , but my instructor made me do it anyways , so what I did is , I rode the horse I usualy ride , which he is very gentle and warm , and then I would get into my horse , and ride him just into trot and walk , and some ground work , I didn't rush my self , the weird thing is .. I jump
Over a meter , with any horse I could ride , but when i'm riding him , I got this fear that i'm going to get bucked .. so as I said I started thing slowly , I recently started to canter with him again , oh and I changed the saddle he seems much calmer now , i'd say spend much time with him just try to bond =)
Good luck for both of us ;)