Didn't know what part of the forum to put this in but oh well...
Basically I don't have an easy horse, had an okay hack today with the occasional bolt/small rear. He's an older horse so does know how to behave.
Well it was a hot day so I went to cool his back where the saddle with the hose to help cool him down.. but he was not having it and ran towards the field gate. At first I just thought he thought I was taking him to the field, as the hose is near the field.
So I took him after managing to catch him and he turned, stood on my foot with his back hoof (yep he has shoes on!!) and ran again.
I lost my temper with him after our day today, I shouted very very loud and the whole yard heard me
I was shouting at him for napping and running away while I was trying to tie him up and 2 of the girls were laughing at me.. I feel so embarrassed and guilty for shouting at him but I have a short temper to be honest
I'm afraid everyone thinks I'm nasty or a mean person
Is there any advise to help me get over this?