Well, after almost cancelling my lesson - seriously, I haven't felt butterflies like those I had yesterday,
I told my instructor how nervous I was and she thought I meant "faint" nervous. I laughed that off as I wasn't but I was soooooo jittery - luckily the horse didn't pick up on it - she was a sweet mare called April.
We tacked her up, led her to the arena and the minute I sat on her my nerves went - instantly!
We spent the lesson walking mostly while I walked her round and directed her - my posture is excellent (one less thing to think about haha) and then I even had a little trot at the end! I smiled all the way though.
The instructor (very calm and reassuring thank goodness) said we'd work on more direction and trotting next week and I honestly can't wait.
I felt such a sense of accomplishment when i'd finished and at 41 couldn't believe i'd finally ridden a horse again!
To anyone who's having doubts, don't! Just go ahead and jump on
I just wish I hadn't given up all those years ago but it's **** good to be back in the saddle again
Thanks for all your well wishes - i think i'll keep updating on here (if for nothing else, I can look back on this and see where I started) and roll on next Monday