I have been working with 2 local trainers over jumps and doing well. I have been using my own personal horse for the jumping and having one of the trainers school him as well to ensure he's kept up on harder jumps and courses.
Now to be clear my horse is 100% trustworthy, he's always done everything I've asked of him. He has NEVER (with me or the trainer) refused a single jump and is very good at timing his jumps and distances. He is an incredibly safe and quiet mount and I have absolutely NO fear of my horse at all.
BUT I get terribly nervous over jumps (to the point of throwing up). I do fine over cross rails but as soon as it's a normal vertical I freak out... even if it's TINY! I've been over larger jumps and do fine, I have good position and control but it still doesn't help the fear.
Do you guys have any advice on what I can do to help my confidence over the jumps? It just doesn't make sense as I've been riding for nearly 20 years and this horse for over 6. Plus I've been jumping on him for 2 1/2 years now and although we do great together I am constantly a ball of nerves and terrified. *sigh* Help?