Join Date: Feb 2010
Location: Bunbury, Western Australia
I know the feeling I really do.
My preivous horse wasn't the best ridding horse, she was green I was green. She use to buck me off everyday. If I didn't ride her for more the 2 days it took me a week to get her back to what she was before the days off, and that was ridable without hitting dirt.
One day we decided to ride in a damp arena and went over a 20cm jump she decided that she would bore down on the bit and pulled me out out of the saddle, I managed to get back up in the saddle while she cantered off, along came the end of the arena which was a fence then star pickets and wire into another paddock, so I turned her and she slipped, we both went down and I landed face first into the arena and she was on her side sliding behind me. I dislocated my jaw. I went to work that after noon then I rde her the next day (in a paddock jumping) and then went to my second job that night and worked until the 5am.
I use to ride her out alone in the paddock or arena with my mobile phone clipped onto my jodphures so that if I fell off I could call for help.....i look back now and think "omg what was I thinking"
I sold her after 11 months of owning and battling with her and bought a nice gelding that was sooo lazy. I was nervous on him for 2 more years, I was a total wreck,but I was determind to ride, so I rode, I rode on the roads to gymkhannas and adult riding, trail riding, jumping, then I went to pony club and started eventing him. When I galloped I would freeze in fear but in the end my fear went and I am now a confident rider with a young horse i'm bringing on.
Selling her was the best decision I ever made.
If I was you (and I have been) I would be doing what hflmusicislife suggested. It will be hard but life isn't only about the easy decision. I have sold 2 horses because they weren't right for me at my stage in my riding career. Maybe if I owned diam now I would know what to do, but if I had the same results I would make the same decision but sooner.
Good luck to you, stay safe.
Remember one life, one chance.
:::THIRD TIME A CHARM:::
Elly ::: Diam ::: Ozzie