I've been riding since I was about 8 years old, and working with them (just stuff on the ground for a year before that) and have always been a confident and pretty good rider - nothing scared me away. I've been on runaways and fiesty horses, head tossers and buckers, stallions, geldings, and mares of all ages and training levels, including formerly abused horses and green horses. And I've had my fair share of bruises and scrapes and have always gotten back up there seconds later. However, my own horse, a morgan cross, is completely different.. most horses I can regain control of in a matter of seconds if they act up... but my horse bucks and rears and bites to no end when she decides she doesn't want to do what I want... most of the time she was great, but about two years ago, she threw me off pretty badly after I managed to keep my feet in the stirrups for the first four or five bucks... it took me almost a minute before I was oriented enough to go and find where she ran off too.
Not long after that, I was doing some groundwork to work back up to riding again (just lunge work and other training methods) and she took off, and my arms got tangled in the lunge line, causing me to be dragged for a bit until I got free. Then she almost got hit by a car that happened to be driving by. Since then, I haven't had the nerve to get back on her, even though my riding and training ability when it comes to other horses is as good as it's ever been.
In the next few weeks, I'm probably getting a new saddle so I can start riding again.. so does anyone have any ideas or ways to help me 'get back into it' or what to expect? Thanks :)
(sorry for the long story)