Have you ever had one of those days?
I did today. I think I was apprehensive the moment I hoped on, because I was trying her with spurs, it being only the second time. She collected nicely, and moved with a nice headset. We fell apart loping though. She went way too fast, and I sat in and asked her to go slower. She ignored me. I stopped her, schooled a bit more, and tried again. I used the spur lightly to ask her to make our circle slightly smaller. She bucked. At this point I was agitated and started being a little heavier on the reins. (I have very soft hands) When she refused to listen/slow, I took to JERKING. Yes. Jerking pretty hard. Many years of formal training, and good equitation, and I resorted to JERKING. My mare is fairly well trained, and we generally get along very nicely. I know I haven't- one day isn't going to do it, but I almost feel terrified I have ruined her. I can't believe I resorted to that. We ended the ride with a nice lope, and I checked her mouth and all is well. I still feel horrible. I'm not that kind of rider. I should have controlled my anger, and I didn't. I'm beating myself up over this. Have you ever had a day like this?