I'm writing this because I really can't sleep at night for what happened a few days ago, and the reason could seem stupid but really, I'm feeling so bad for it!
I'm 17 now and I had to give up horse riding at 13, for health reasons, and I could go back on horseback only now, and it's been two months I've been taking lessons again.
I put really all of my efforts in it, so one week ago my teacher told me " okay, you're doing really well now, next time you'll canter for the first time".
Unfortunately, the horse I should have cantered with has had some legs problems, and it's resting, so I was given another horse, an old huge trotter (ex-race horse). Well, I usually have few problems with the oldies, but this time, really, it didn't listen to me in any way. I had to trot at first, but the best I could achieve for an hour (with legs and whip) was a slow walk, and him stopping all the time. After a while my teacher said "okay, I'll show you" and after being for one second on his back, he started trotting and galloping fast.
I got on again, and he was even worse... that made me feel really bad, and I'm afraid it could happen again... I couldn't understand where I go wrong, and my teacher told me " you have to give him the impulse to go". I usually manage to do everything with other horses, and I don't understand what I have to do... Do you have any clue? I'll have my next lesson on thursday, and I'd like not to waste it that way...
Thanks a lot :)