I still can't believe it.
Magic saw the dentist this morning and had a wolf tooth pulled [I paid for them both to be removed over a year ago so I don't know what it was doing still being there but never mind... and yes it was one of the ones that were "removed"] so I can't ride her with a bit for a while, but this dentist doesn't use sedation so she was otherwise fine to be worked.
So I jumped on with her halter and lead set up like a sidepull. Yes, I had my saddle on her... I don't do bareback on a 3 year old Thoroughbred! And we went out for a trail ride. After trotting on a loose rein for a while I thought we could have a go at a canter.
AND WE HAD A LOVELY LONG CALM CONTROLLED AND MOST IMPORTANTLY CONFIDENT CANTER. I'm very nervous in canter after having had a number of falls that could have been very nasty [but luckily weren't, worst I've ever had was a hairline fracture in my humerus up near my shoulder combined with a moderate concussion - but that fall could have killed me had I not been wearing a helmet so I consider myself very very lucky] and today I WASN'T worried about her taking off or failing to stop when asked or spooking or any of that, I just calmly rode the canter.
Best trail ride I've had in a very long time! Magic is NOT a trail pony, she much prefers the arena, but today's ride was a very pleasant experience for both of us so I feel like it's a huge breakthrough in my confidence issues. Just a matter of time now before I'm confident enough to actually ask for more impulsion and not just sit there and ride it!