I recently retired my 12 year ex racehorse Kiwi to be a companion horse in the field because of severe arthritis and joint issues she developed in her racing days before I bought her as a rescue at an auction.
My new horse is a rescue, but of a very different kind.
Twilight is a 7 year old Arabian that I bought (cheaply) from owners who did not know much about horses and were accidentally mistreating her in the process. They did not want her anymore, so I decided that I needed a new project. I am not a 'new' rider, but in no way am I a professional. I still have a coach/trainer that I work with on my horse, but ever since retiring Kiwi, my trusty, loving, quiet mare, I've been having confidence issues on Twilight.
And then comes the good part. The day where my coach decides to take a group of us to the outdoor arena for some schooling. Twilights first time outside. My first time breaking a bone by falling. I fell off twice, and both times were my fault. The first time she was spinning, and bumped into this hefty little halflinger pony my friend owns, and in self defense he kicked out and hit my shin. I lifted my leg subconsciously and tipped out the other side.
After this Twilight was even more full of herself. Her urge to race and prance and spin morphed into bucking and crow hopping every six steps until eventually I was mentally exhausted and she gave a tiny buck and I flew over her head onto the side of my neck/shoulder.
Needless to say, I am a bit terrified of riding her again. I know falling makes me a better rider, and I've fallen before! But for some reason this really has me spooked. She isn't an easy horse. You really have to boss her around, and she will try to buck you off for the first few minutes until (hopefully and usually) she gives up.
Was she worse because it was her first time outside? My coach claims she is 'winter sour' because of the cold weather and riding her will become easier in the summer.
Like I said, I'm no pro. I'm afraid I can't handle a horse as smart as Miss Twilight, but I don't want to give up.
Is there any advice anyone can offer?
Even just moral support to get me back in the saddle?