I can certainly identify!! I had ridden for years, and then stopped for a long while. Starting back up with buying horses, and getting thrown, one reared with me, one would run away. After just a few times, I lost all confidence and didn't know where to turn. I have to say the folks on here are right, from my experience. It took lots of ground work, and there are still days when something starts to turn and I get a panicked feeling all over me!! The ground work is a wonderful tool for making it better for you, I believe. Plus, you will figure out this horse much quicker~whether its behavioral or something else; and how to address it. Addressing bad behavior can feel empowering!! I don't know about you, but I am not a spring chicken anymore and don't baounce nearly as good as I used to!! (Plus, I don't WANT TO bounce anymore!!) Take Care and let us know what works for you!!
"If you talk to the animals they will talk with you and you will know each other. If you do not talk to them you will not know them and what you do not know, you will fear. What one fears, one destroys." - Chief Dan George