At my lesson today, I finally had the "breakthrough", the "epiphany", everything finally clicked for me.
I had been stressing lately, thinking that I wasn't improving and making the same mistakes I've made my whole riding career. It was really making me uncomfortable and I was upset.
Somehow, today, everything Jen was saying that she always says made sense in a new way, and I was jumping a million times better and like completely differently but in the right way!
It was so excited I finally got it right! The only bummer is that I leave for college after my last lesson next Monday, which means a new trainer, and who knows when my new lessons start. Bummer!!! I'll just have to practice with Bailey before I leave.