I'm so incredibly mad.
I hate my whole stupid freaking situation.
I tore my A.C.L on September 8th, playing soccer. I was out of riding for about 5 days...Mind you my horse is three years old and still in training...Well I rode consistently after that. October 9th, I got surgery on my knee to reconstruct my A.C.L. I haven't ridden since then, I've only been lunging her , a lot, with her head tied down, to reinforce her head set, and keep her slow, but that's besides the point...I went to the doctor today to get a new brace...and I asked if I was allowed to ride, and he said "Well I wouldn't recommend it because getting on you could slip or rotate it and then we would have to do the surgery all over again." So I blew up. And then my grams is like "We'll just wait three more weeks and see where we are then," since that's when my next appointment is...Sorry for ranting by the way, I'm bawling my eyes out and need to let it loose before I make myself more mad and start yelling at people...So I tell my doctor that I can climb on a mounting block to get on and that people would be there to help me get on, because we're all really careful with my knee, and he was like well it's your knee...And my grams being the bad word that she is was like "Well no, you can't so just wait." Me being the hard-ass that I am says "You're not the doctor...it's not up to you." She replies with the "Well the doctor said no." Then I smartly replied "No, he said he wouldn't recommend it. I'm not waiting three weeks to ride."
So I've come to the conclusion that I can't wait three weeks to ride and I'm going to ride sometime.
Ugh, I really hate this.