I suppose all my past history is on here somewhere--with my terrible riding instructor, injuries (some directly caused by her, some irrelevant to horses at all), etc.
Well, I started working for a stable for lessons back in the fall. It was about minimum wage, 6 hours for an hour lesson. I found it extremely fair and I adored just being there and learning from her.
I stopped due to school, my grandfather was hospitalised with, and passed away with leukemia that developed into lymphoma, my father got married and her family moved in--it's been so hectic. And I've been miserable..with school, just..everything has been overbearing.
I got super depressed over the summer and getting back into horses (I completely cut it off with my awful instructor when her ("yep she only started taking a bit a week ago, it's your fault she won't trot at all over a two hour length of time, even if Buddy would canter circles for you") horse ran into a pole (why was there a telephone pole in the arena??) and I dislocated my knee and sprained it. Anyways, when I started again with a qualified English instructor, as opposed to the barn-owning backwoods western rider who taught herself terribly how to ride western in an English saddle (if you know what I mean) (and I'm sorry for ranting, lol), I found myself the happiest I've ever been.
I'm seventeen, btw. And working/riding with my CMT made me feel awesome..and just..mentally, physically /great/.
Well, I've been so depressed lately, for many reasons, I just..so stressed...I really feel like I need to go back. So once my foot heals from a sprained ankle/torn ligament. I wouldn't trust myself to ask for lessons in exchange--I'll try to explain my situation without excusing myself and pray she'll let me just work there for the experience--I'm hoping though because she said to call her back anytime she wanted to start working again, and I originally asked just to work for free anyways.
Anyways, just needed to vent. =/