I was so out of line.

I am so upset with myself.

It was a normal day and I went out to see my horse to ride. All went well and I tacked him up and took him out to the indoor. I got in and realized the BO texted me and asked me to turn the feed room light on for the feed guy. I don't know what in the world I was thinking, but I started walking to the barn, with my horse standing in the arena. The only motive I really can surmise is the fact that it was raining, and I really didn't want to make him trudge back through the mud and get my saddle wet. I had done this I think twice before, and I trust him. He is always good. Well, I'm so stupid for doing this because what does he do, but roll, with all my tack on. I walk back in and he's down at the other end, with broken reins hanging down and the saddle full of dirt. BUT mind you, on the way back, my ipod falls out of my pocket, and into the mud puddles. I am FURIOUS, and can't find it because it's now submerged in 2" of water, and it's pitch black. I shine my phone light to try to find it, and what happens? My phone falls out of my hand, into the puddle. I could have just about killed someone.. So after all this, I go in there to find my horse like that and I took off his tack and just freaked out. I chased him around for a good 2 minutes, and I could tell he was scared, but I just kept chasing. I finally just broke down and sat in the middle bawling. He was there and I took advantage of him. I took my anger out on my poor creature. I couldn't believe how one mistake could just cause everything to turn to crap. I felt bad because I didn't know if either of my devices were working, I couldn't believe I had been so dumb to leave my horse unattended, but most of all, I couldn't believe I had betrayed my best friend only because I was mad. He just stood there for a while, watching me. Then he came over to me and let me hug him. I am crying just thinking about it. Why should he forgive me so quickly when I just probably reversed his trust?

I love him so much, and I let him know it after that. I just sat there with him for a long time, talking to him and hugging him. He followed me around the arena as I looked for the pieces of the reins, trying to cheer me up by nudging me. Later, I got on him for our ride and it went so nicely. He really is my best friend. He's always there for me, and he always listens to everything I have to say. Why did I let anger overcome that? I am so upset with myself. I just needed to share. :'(

Because you're human and it happens. Although its bad, and you should be careful not to let it happen again it's okay, no harm done. It's happened to all of us atleast once, whether we willingly admit it or not. I know it's definitely happened to me! The point is that you realized that you reacted in appropriately and will be careful it doesn't happen again :)
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That is almost like some kind of comedy sitcom. I hope he did not crack the saddle tree with his rolling tacked up.
IN any case, you really paid a high price for a lapse in judgement.

Your horse will forgive you. Just out of curiousity, is losing your temper like that something you find yourself doing , or was this a totally once in a lifetime thing?
I only ask because if you know it to be a personal weakness (and it takes courage to admit it to yourself) then it's something to really look hard at.

Everybody has those types of days. I had an entire month of that back in December. My dad was calling me "Bad Luck Chelsea"...

Unfortunately we all make mistakes. And the best way to learn is from our own mistakes. I'm sure you won't leave your mischievous horse unattended again.

Reins can be replaced. Dirt can be brushed off. And a saddle blanket can be washed. Tears can be dried.

Your lucky to have such a forgiving friend that even though he was confused by your actions, he was loving enough to to lend you a shoulder to cry on and a mane to wipe your tears away.

Keep your head up and bring him an apple tomorrow. I'm sure he'd appreciate it.

I was so worried about that. I checked over and over again that it looked and felt just as it did before, and I felt all over the gullet and tree, and I think I'm safe, but then again I've never had it happen, so I didn't know really what to look for.


Yeah, I thought about that too. I would be the first person to tell myself there's something wrong. I think I was just really stressed, because that NEVER happens to me. I'm always the one with the even-tempered, "think about things before you do them/say them" kind of attitude. I just got done with taking midterms at school, and I'm dealing with a little bit of personal problems, and I think my phone and ipod almost both getting destroyed, then everything else, just put me over the edge. Thanks for your concern though, it means a lot.

Did you find the gizmos? That is a serious hit to take. They are pricey!

You can put your devices in a plastic bag full of instant rice and it will draw out the moisture.

Not sure.. Explain? Lol

Thank you, already on it! ;)

leave them in over night.