Thanks. There were lots of reasons I freaked out. I'll try putting them in dot points.
-I have never ridden Melody and had been told she could be stubborn.
-Melody wasn't looking very well when she was trotting around the ring with a kid younger than me on her back(coughing)
-The bolting horse I rode and lost my confidednce to last year was around the same size as melody.
-I was only just getting comfortable with the saddle... I really didn't want to be holding onto a neck strap and trying stay on to the pony so quickly.
-It had rained several minutes ago and the horses weren't to happy that they had gotten rain in their faces.
-I really didn't want to ride a small pony(bareback), especially one who looks really sick.
-I think I would have been ok on Sonnett(around 14-15hh)(one of the horses I got really close to)
- I also got really nervous because they were all watching me..
If you don't know, I lost my confidence last year( in december) when I went on a holiday and went horse trekking. The man put me on a 2 yr old pony called Lofty(Way too young to be a beginner riders horse) I was very confident back then but then when we started to ride Lofty bolted with me. At first I thought that I had kicked him into a gallop but he bolted with me for the whole hour trekk. I gave up with trying to stop him and just held onto the pommel of the saddle and tried to not fall....It was not a fun day. I hope to never ride a 2 year old ever again.(2 year olds shouldn't be beginners horses anyway)...