Since I can remember, my riding position has been fairly appalling, probably due to picking up bad habits very young and not being able to shake them. I've no doubt that it's gotten worse in the last five or six years as I have not had any lessons.
A friend took some pictures of me riding on Monday and as per usual, I thought my position was cringeworthy. "Jesus, I look like that?"
The thing is that it all still works. The horse does what I want her to do when I want her to do it, we can work at the level we want, I haven't any trouble with unwanted or resistant behaviour but if she does get hot or spooky (rare, but it happens now and again), I have no problems with riding it out. As long as no photos are involved, I think everything is fine!
A couple years ago I got into reading Mark Rashid's stuff and thinking about energy and softness and all these kinds of things and that made a HUGE difference in how my horse went. He talks a great deal about becoming mindful of where you are braced in your body and mind and instead create softness. The horse will follow softness and be soft in kind (well, mine did what it said on the tin anyway). It made more of a difference than my ten years of dressage lessons with trainers shouting "heels down!" every five minutes. My lower leg positioned remained crap but my horse, like good whisky, has only ever improved with age. I'm not sure how. I must be doing something right.
So I suppose I'm toying with the question of, do I worry about this? Do I spend yet more effort in fixing it or really, who cares? Is good equitation all it's made out to be? Can you get away with not having any of it?
Or is it like fiddle technique? I also play Irish traditional music and know lots of fiddle players whose technique would make a classical violinist wince, but they can nonetheless play Irish dance tunes beautifully. The requirements of that sort of music are quite different and while you may need classical technique to get through Paganini's Etudes, you don't need it to get through some Irish reels. Trad players who have classical training say it helps, but you can happily get away with not having it so long as you have the sound and control you want over the instrument.
I have no ambition to ride Grand Prix or any kind of FEI level dressage and I'm unlikely to ever show again, as I don't like it and can't be bothered.
I'm just rambling, putting thoughts out there rather than looking for advice on solving a problem. As I said, I don't think my horse (surely the only one who's opinion actually matters!) sees a problem. Yesterday, as she was cruising through her dressage gears around the arena, I was thinking how smooth and soft everything was going in spite of my horrible position. The only time I felt communication got sticky was when I tried to jam my heels down.