That is the video of me falling.
It happened about 5 weeks ago. I've had therapy and chiropractic/physio care. I missed out on school for a week. I went to school the next week, and I've been getting better. Im now allowed to get on a horse.
I [a] am terrified. I got on last week, and the horse shifting it's weight scared me. I couldn't breathe properly, as if I was enduring a panic attack.
And [b] I just don't want to. As if horses are suddenly BORING. I've lost interest, and confidence of course. I'd rather go to school everyday of the week than go riding. I'd rather work on all of my assignments than go and see my horse.
I haven't seen him in a whole week. (my family also care for him. They are doing the feeding etc.)
And the horse is beginning to have problems. Since I havent been riding, he has been headstrong with others and being a total (bad word).
I don't know what to do. I feel so sad.